Anytime I see a band live, I go through a period of “withdrawal,” where I play their songs over and over. And over…and over.
Since seeing Against Me! on June 27th, two songs have stuck in my head: “Because of the Shame,” and “Black Me Out.”
The latter is obviously what this post is concerned with.
When I was a teenager, I *felt* so much. I was like that rando that popped up in Mean Girls, but…ANGRY.
If I heard a song that resonated with me, I would find myself screaming out the lyrics. Which, as I alluded to in my post about the Against Me! show, I haven’t done in quite some time.
Laura Jane Grace has been quoted as saying that “Black Me Out,” is one of her current favorite songs to play live. And it’s so easy to see why!
Regardless of your station in life, we all go through periods where we’re “reclaiming” ourselves. Where someone, or something – a seemingly evil entity – has snatched up your very being and toted it around in their pocket. Eventually you fight your way back, and there’s a period of frustrated empowerment. You make promises to yourself that you hope you won’t break, vowing to never let something like that happen again.
ANYWAY – this song is the anthem to that feeling. It’s such a difficult emotion to describe.
But, seriously, how can you not relate?!?
I don’t ever want to talk that way again
I don’t want to know people like that anymore
As if there was an obligation
As if I owed you something
Black me out
I want to piss on the walls of your house
I want to chop those brass rings off
Your fat fucking fingers
As if you were a king-maker
As if, as if, as if
Black me out
I don’t want to see the world that way anymore
I don’t want to feel that weak and insecure
As if you were my fucking pimp
As I was your fucking whore